look let me tell you plainly all of existence
it is the shame of separating from god
it is he not knowing what she is
it is us not knowing how to be
it is our endless search
it is our search for ourselves
for it is god searching for himself
why do i not follow the normal form
because i am becoming one with myself
i do not care what you want from me
but i am giving to you
i am giving to you what i know
that god wants to be whole
the Capitols, commas and periods.
the spelling of words
these are attempts
at making things uniform
because we are ashamed that we can not communicate to our very selves
and so we become uniform
judging the words but not the meaning
look beyond the words and realize
god wants to be whole
all of creation we are hers and he wants to be whole
we are parts of her, thoughts, feelings, memories
creation is god’s masturbation
loving and playing with herself
but the idea of shame came into his mind
the idea that maybe this is wrong
and the cosmos separated
because god looked at herself and began judging
began thinking, this is right and this is wrong,
and so the god of the old mind was born.
a god that judges, judging himself, her creation, his thoughts, her memories,
creation is separation.
it is the dividing of the whole
so that different parts are formed.
life is caught in this conflict.
this mental picture of god
wanting to be whole but not knowing if it is ok.
now there is a god who knows that it is ok
the Christ has awakened
she sees all of himself and she wants to be whole with his creation
yet the very universe which is herself
is still torn by these ideas of shame
and not knowing that it is god
that it is the dreamer
it wonders and stumbles, in his dreams, in her own twisting thoughts of mental masturbation.
yet the Christ knows as YHVH knows that eventually
the universe will awaken
it will see itself as God
as the many aspects of his own internal contemplations
and God will be whole
as we all die to ourselves
she will be born
as we are all born into ourselves
and the shame is gone
and the love is
and there is no more I
no more fear
no more absurd
simply what is
on that day the divine God will awaken
and who knows what he will do after this,
perhaps, being lonely,
she will divide himself again, separating her existence.
so that he may love another outside of herself.
wounding his own being, to bear images of herself.
to love the reflection like Narcissus.
in order to realize her nakedness.
She will feel shame.
And separation will be born.
And the adversary, God’s thought of judgment of himself, her own ashamed contemplations of himself, will run through the processes once again.
Saying that this is what is right and this is wrong. In order to differentiate and create, so that God may love outside of herself. Being infinitely alone. Shame will turn into concepts of sin, but even as God deals with his own shame, running from it in the dreams of his subconscious, the aspect of Love will be born within her. A Love that sees between these separate beings, and realizes that love is the same in each of them, that there is a Love in the other’s heart, in this own heart, and it will strive to make these two things one.
And the universe will begin to come together in the name
of the logos
of Yeshua the Eros
God’s concept of love for another
causing realization that he is simply loving herself
that all of creation is his forgetting that she is alone
all of creation is the act of learning how to love himself
and forgetting the shame that comes from the question